Please remember that you tried everything to save her and stay strong. You have no idea how similar to you I felt when I lost my little birdy two years ago. He was the only thing that made my day happy when I was down and so so so special to me. I noticed a change in behavior but everyone around me told me that it was normal and that he was alright and going to be ok. I was unaware of this site then so I looked everything up, but didn't find anything that lead to him being in danger so I believed the idea that he was 'ok'. You can't imagine the guilt and pain I feel now, knowing that we could have acted and maybe he would be sitting beside me right now. I can't believe how stupid I was to go with the popular idea instead of that that I believed was right..... HOW COULD I??? Can you imagine the pain I felt when I found out it was too late to save him that night? Now, every time I hear another story with a sad sad ending I tear up, and I just can't help but feel like crying. All those feelings of sadness, regret, anger... everything comes back to me. Even as I type this I can't help but feel that way. And how many times have I dreamed that my sweet little angel is still with us....... I'm sure you know my pain.
So be strong, and remember that your birdy loved you, and still does. You did everything you could do at the moment and well, nature just was a little bit stronger. Just know that your bird is in a happier place now, without pain and without any worries, and well, maybe she has even met with my little Mr. White!